Emotional Rollercoaster

I was feeling low again last night, overwhelmed by the same wave of helplessness and fatigue over the past 2-3 months. Sometimes I try to battle them with sheer mental will and it works, but in others I can literally feel it creeping up and before long I just give in to the depressed demon within. Last night was one of those times where I just caved in. Guilt and the sense of failure that comes with it are the devil's perfect advocates. I now have a greater appreciation of what mothers have to go through, and so grateful that my mother has always been there when I needed her. Last night was no exception.

Today I feel much better, although it's CF's last day at work. Perhaps it's the wonderful farewell lunch we had, or the 2 games of pool we played, or the opportunity to re-live those happy memories again and marvel how things have changed in just one year. In the next 6 - 8 months, the entire original team might've left...but it's a happy ending at least! And me, I'm just happy that I've announced about Sweet Pea ('Oh that explains your mood swings..' - said a colleague), and that my bank balance looks healthier now...hehehe.

It's October tomorrow, and soon it'll be time to get a Christmas tree. I see a beautiful sunset now...